i can't help but sense this tightness in my chest, whenever i look at anything related to medicine, it feels like my insides are getting squashed, my eyes tear with pain and my throat sinks so deep it's hard to swallow away my emotions. i feel like i betrayed myself, and the feeling never goes away, it lingers at the back of my mind no matter how hard i try to concentrate on the present and plan for the future. will this feeling ever go away?
my lack of motivation to do anything spans to the point where sleep is now my only escape.. for a while. however sometimes i wake only to remember i was actually also dreaming about medicine.
i'm not weak, i'd never let myself sink this low. medicine meant the world to me, i have always wanted to pursue this career, not doing it just makes me feel this depression that i just can't shake off.
how do i move on? how do i look past this mess? is there a sanctuary for people like me?
my lack of motivation to do anything spans to the point where sleep is now my only escape.. for a while. however sometimes i wake only to remember i was actually also dreaming about medicine.
i'm not weak, i'd never let myself sink this low. medicine meant the world to me, i have always wanted to pursue this career, not doing it just makes me feel this depression that i just can't shake off.
how do i move on? how do i look past this mess? is there a sanctuary for people like me?