this fire

can i complain? i hope i can.. this place is a gamsat log, and so i have something to moan about - sorry in advance! so with my situation at the moment, i'm working 2 jobs, that means i work 7 days a week, each day i work 8 hours + 2 hours of travel (each day) + 1 hour for dinner = 10 hours already gone from my 24 hours. i take 8 hours on average for sleep, this leaves me with 6 hours left. lets say i spend 3 hours a day revising.. where on earth does the other 3 hours go?! ok so 1 hour to get ready for work or 2 hours to wash & get ready for work.. what on earth am i doing for those extra few hours?! when i count them up like this it sounds like i'm using my time productively right? it really doesn't feel like it :/
revision timetable has been just about ok & manageable, but i can't seem to fit any practice questions/essays time in the revision slots. this is really frustrating me. it takes 2 hours to do a paper (section 1 practice) and at least an extra 2 hours going through the answers.. or at least theoretically that is dependent on how much time i could spend looking at explanation for answers.
i've got to do something, it feels like i can barely have any time to revise.. i need to do some practice questions too >.< i don't feel like i'm putting enough time into this, and its all crucial really.. i can't fail this time round, i just can't.

We are all connected

gcse physics done :D gosh thought that book would never end! section 1 you're next!

i'm having trouble with HR at the hospital regarding my references, where could one hire an assassin to infiltrate their headquarters and assassinate their leader? i could really use an ezio right now *sigh*

panic

i spent the whole afternoon looking through all my revision material.. what i intend to use and oh my god.. i have so much to get through!!!
so after organising the material into separate sections (based on whats been examined according to acer) i've come up with a list of 22 thick piles to get through. wtf was i thinking last week doing just gcse physics?! i've got so much to get through *panics*

handed in my notice to part time job, theres no way i'll be able to pass without more time devoted to this revision. problem is, i know this won't be enough, i'll need a miracle ahhh!!

hiatus

i need a break from this - i'll be back soon with some more meaningful posts. thanks for visiting (& reading) :3

small details

covered moar physics today - i kind of went over chapter 3 again - i realised theres more about waves later on in the revision guide so i better have a fresh read through it again. done chapter 3 and 4 today. so far its a third of the revision guide, lets keep at it and finish this beast.

F=ma

got through moar gcse physics chapters today - though the fact that i had not slept great last night really showed - even hot chocolate couldn't keep me awake. i definitely see the difference in gcse and a level physics levels now. what really concerns me is how on earth did i pass my gcse physics exam?! this stuff is hard! patience i say, patience!!

Polymer pron. Yes, it's pron.

i'm sorry, i'm so so sorry. i couldn't stop laughing at this. also, an idiot tagged this as physics.. wtf?!
so the physics electricity equations are kicking my ~
i'll continue to rehearse them this week in the aim of learning them off by heart. forces here i come :)

all those things

today has been weird mid-day i thought i had caught the MRSA bug running around my ward earlier this week and so i completely isolated myself from the whole house now i just think it might be a false alarm - though i have to say my stomach still doesn't feel very comfortable... eh who knew catching this would be so easy even when i've been so careful? then again maybe not? i guess its best to wait and see o_o

i've found that i have these over-expectations i keep of myself - reality slap kinda helped today.. it feels so much serious and stressful this time round. its good, it means i care enough about what i want to achieve.. maybe thats why i've had loose bowls today? am i really that stressed?

baby steps

watched physics videos, done chapters 1-4 on gcse physics

its so good to have a bank holiday to kick start things off :)

Registration

signed up for GAMSAT UK exam September 2012

the dark days

today i had to give a notice, and provide an end date with the nursing home. its been really nice and all, but everything has to have an ending. sooner or later my time will be consumed with other priorities and so i have to keep on top of things. its always bitter when you end a good journey, it leaves a sour remain in the hearts of the people looking after you. perhaps its a feeling associated with letting those people down somehow by stepping down, or perhaps its just the reality that you've been shielded from simply by going about your day. its not always so green and wonderful on the other side, more than often its a complete disappointment.
nevertheless, its always good to make the most of what you have left. look beyond the bitter in people's hearts and care for whats really important, your significance, and how to become a better person. its never good to hear negative feedback, however its always better to take this on and use it as a challenge to get better.
i never thought i'd ever have to look after elderly! then again here i am, doing it and enjoying it strangely enough! despite this, i look at what i'm doing and somehow feel bad for myself. i know i deserve better, i know i am worth so much more, i should be treated so much better.. but this road, i chose to go with it. now i'm here i have to see it through, its not a chore, its a miracle i'm still here and carrying on. i've never been so proud of myself ever in my life. this feels right and the obstacles i have to endure, i know will only make me stronger.

blown out of the window

s small relief to a challenging month

there is this thing called 'necessities' and theres this other thing called 'MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE'
today they were merged. after quickly taking a peek at my pay slip, i sighed with relief for i've been waiting for this pay day very very patiently. not to say the least i splashed out today. lets.. call it an investment in the good future. i prefer to place my money into good use, so for today, i hope i've done the right thing, for me. i hope that i will truly benefit from this..

insha'allah

this is all halah money, its money i've earned through helping people and its the sweetest gift, or like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.. ehh i'm making it sound like its a lot.. its not really.. its tiny compared to what others with my degree are getting.. but at least i know its a money well deserved, its all i need right now

alhamdu'allah