paris trip

last week i was away and isolated from internets, i was in paris. it was a bit of an unexpected trip, but somehow on short notice everything came together, and organised (to a certain extent! the majorly of the trip was improvised very well). the only disappointing part was that mum decided against coming along. other than that, it was most definitely an amazing trip. for 3 days, me, dad and yummie went exploring, plenty of walking, and driving. i took so many pictures and never once did my camera fail me in both battery life, quality of pictures and capacity to hold all the movies and pictures i took on the trip. i really really really love my camera, its like the best ever purchase i ever did. i love it!
the places i visited included Eiffel tower, Louvre museum, Champs-Elysee, Place de la Concorde, Jardin des Tuileries, Montemartre, Notre Dame, latin quarter. considering that we only spent 2 nights there i think this trip was very productive and we got to see so many amazing attractions and sample the culture and cuisines of paris. i really loved the people - they were all so polite and friendly despite the fact that we were tourists, it really made the trip so much less stressful and distressing when exploring the city.

Results day

over the past few weeks leading up to today i had been dreading the outcome of my results. every time i think about them, i get a sour taste in my mouth and the urge to throw up. i don't want to face the outcome for i know i will be severely disappointed, and will drown in regret. i didn't deserve to pass, and even if i did, i cannot suppress my deepest regret for this year. bad luck wouldn't even describe how this year turned out. this year was a curse, i was doomed to fail and i tried everything in my power to prevent it, but my efforts were insufficient. i got my results today, and it said, 'lower class second'. this means that i can't pursue my dream career, this also means that i can't apply for any scholarships, graduate schemes, or apply for a PhD. i feel so worthless right now. every time i'm left to my own thoughts, the regrets flood my mind leaving me in an emotional breakdown. i burst into tears. how can i break this vicious cycle? why is it that whenever i have a glimmer of hope, the world crushes down on me? i'm not like all the other girls, i don't date, i don't drink - why is it that i could help others but can't help myself? or more specifically, why are my good deeds never repaid? why do i have to suffer? isn't it written in the qur'an that a believer is protected from life's and eternal sorrow? why am i being punished? what am i being punished for? i worked so hard this year but my efforts have all been in vain. i hate myself. i hate myself so much. astaghfur allah alatheem... astaghfur allah alatheem... astaghfur allah alatheem.

self-proclaimed injuries & nike trainers reviews

few weeks back i asked a question over at yahoo answers:

I dropped hot water on my hand now i can't play zombies! HELP?

as stupid as that sounds i got replies to my question haha check them out >> here <<

yesterday i spoke about going to town walking right? well things didn't turn out as quite as i had planned. i did indeed reach town centre by walking, however not only was it raining all the way, but i also developed fat-ass blisters from my River Island boots :( so theres me in town limping around for like 10 minutes then i took the bus back home to change my shoes and attend to those blisters with sticky blister plasters to numb the pain. fortunately, my mum few weeks back got me some really comfy sandals from Turkey which came very useful regarding these blister. despite having my feet exposed to the roads and whatever bare feet get up to down there, i managed to explore town the whole day, and also try some nike trainers! so heres my verdict on those:

Nike Air Max 2011

these trainers above were extremely stiff, i am a size 6 and so i tried a pair in my size and my heel was constantly being pushed up and down the shoe as i walked despite these shoes being comfortable, the rigidity of the sole, or under-layer in addition to how tightly fit they were makes these trainers a big no no for purchasing. i score these 3/10 because i really was not impressed with the trainers in terms of both value for money, and usability. they were very pretty though, very very pretty...

Nike training range: poor sole at the bottom, they were extremely flat, and to some extent, very easy to slip in if its raining. it has virtually no grip at all, and therefore despite the attractive trainer design, they cannot be used for any other purposes.

Nike Air Max Tailwind+ 3

these were far more comfortable, in fact they had a spongy feel to it. the shoe itself didn't feel high quality, and it felt like my foot sunk into it despite being light weight and so this makes them unideal for running. i wouldn't recommend these trainers - they may look nice in the picture, but they were very chunky and unattractive when worn... manybe its because they're supposed to be for men? LOL meh. score: 5/10

Nike Air Free Running - they looked very promising however, they only had them in men sizes 8+ so i cannot really be sure how good they are as there weren't any female versions sadly...

sports soccer was pretty much the only shop in town which sold a wide range of male and female nike trainers, however they were limited in sizes, and range. their staff were also very unfriendly, unapproachable and quite honestly i just wanted to get out of that shop asap it wasn't good >.<

to add to my injury list, i also burned myself at work on my left arm, now i'll look emo with emo scars from the emo bakery oven. i'm emo like that.

Some designs for woodysgamertag

oh gosh.. photobucket seems to hate me right now - i hope woody's subs didn't crash that place D:
heres my designs for the business card

first design © 2011 http://dendoona.deviantart.com

second design - this one has a bit of padding hence it looks slightly smaller
© 2011 dendoona.deviantart.com

this was fun, i think i spent like and hour and a half doing both? i dunno i lose track of time when i do graphics hehe

Portal 2 installation & laundry day ~ hurraah!

so yesterday i discovered that i didn't get a viva - so the whole day studying was for preeety much, worthless u.u; glad i had zombie matches in the evening otherwise i would have exploded with pain sensitisation and the dairy farm reproductive issues all over my room D:
so today i've got the rest of my room to clean and going to town, walking, uphill - yeah should be a blast, now common ipod recharge, i will need you for motivational support! i think i'll be looking at trainers, trying some on and deciding on what to really get - i know they're all great, but perhaps trying them on would help me decide because right now i wanna buy them all xD
one issue i keep having is that some guys in my steam friends list keep changing their names! i'm so sick of it, for some i can no longer recognise where i met them, and how 'good' they are at zombie slaying garrr (hence the pic above heh)
i'll be playing portal 2 later today, fingers crossed my brain will do me good ;D

researching trainers running v.s. training ~ i need a 2in1

i'll keep this short, as i may have a viva later today :( FFFUUUUUU!!!
so over the past few days i've been looking to get some new trainers, the ones i currently have are a simple pair designed by Next, but have stood with me through the past 2 years torment. so yeah, i was looking at nikes air, lunar and tailwind until i saw this baby:

Mizuno Wave Prophecy

what is this demon?! DO. WANT. the only problem is the cost! the cheapest on the internet is £150.00 exc. delivery charges. what i like about it? it looks... so awesome! its like an artwork, its like your muscles, the tendons, the weaving of the spindles oh AND the blood vessels, omg i'm in love! x.x

before i'm buying anything however i need to test the nike trainers at my nearest sports direct or something equivalent.. another problem i am having is the jargon associated with these trainers - all i want is a pair of trainers to wear for both the gym and running - be that at the treadmill or on the street.. ok pavement, or park or aghhhkjghdkjl kljdf gb you get the idea.. but i want something that would really help me out, i get blisters and swelling of the toes from my current trainers regardless of wearing the right sports socks and that needs to stop if i want to push myself.. so yeah, i need new trainers. its been awesome my trusty Next trainers but i need something more comfortable in the long term.

Presentation

so my presentation in my eyes went better than i had anticipated. i didn't stutter, remained focused and pronounced everything properly - yeah i had a feeling those scientific words would bring me shame but thankfully that didn't happen. so as i was presenting and looking around the room i see frowns, frustrated expressions, confused, and maybe even day dreamers... and there i was just thinking wtf... my presentation was the most exciting one out of the lot! who the hell cares about questioning the public about animal cruelty? who the hell cares about boring and insanely depriving bioinformatics methods?! my mitochondria was way more interesting, especially with inception and super-sized mitochondria destroying buildings references. mine was awesome and people.. ehh especially the supervisors - IT WASN'T BORING, WHAT THE HELL?!

Art by chicken-eggtimer

so i finish and all, and oh my gosh, the supervisors go berserk on me, quizzing me on my presentation and among other mitochondria knowledge like hungry wolves! one of the girls at the end even apologised on behalf of her supervisor for tormenting me on the spot. other people got like 2 maybe 3 questions, and me.. i think it almost reached double digits but i was prepared.. after all, i've been doing this blasted dissertation for a whole year and spent my summer last year soaking up knowledge about diseases associated with mitochondria, so hell yeah i was answering every question i was asked, and was capable of handling more if those noobs thought that i wasn't prepared they were in for a showdown. they wanted to grill me on the spot, well they're gonna need a lot more wood to burn this baby.

overall it was an experience that i put a lot of effort into, gosh i think even the people in the next room could hear me rawr the information like splat after splat! thats probably the only bad thing, i started out being loud, and just continued that tone throughout... though it kinda helped, i was able to clear my mind and concentrate on what i was saying so everything was logical, everything made sense - my my i hope it did for others...
no way i would get any complements for there is none to get especially from ticked off supervisors. i don't blame them though, i had one hell of a bad year this year, and it just isn't going to get better for me. not now, not in the future and i fear for the grades that i'm going to receive next week. remember me in your prayer, and wish me luck, for i will desperately need it.