summer

exam today, didn't have enough time to finish it, and just like the obsessive little me, papers were collected, and there i was on my way home still answering the questions i got in the test in my head, remembering errors i had made, and what else that i had forgotten to add. this is ridiculous the exam was 3 hours long and i only managed to scrape 2 out of 4 questions and not even in detail, if i get 20% for those questions it would be a miracle. sucks to be me. so i had a lil nap just to bring me back to life as when i got home i was in zombie mode, woke up and there i was still going - exam in my head aghh!!! the dread of not performing as well as i hoped this year is killing me. its like i need to punish myself but trying really hard to avoid coming to those terms. none of the exams i've had this year were on the ok zone, all were super hard and i'm just kidding myself thinking that i could take this career path. who am i to change the world? who am i to rid of cancer? (ok thats over the top but i do have a few ideas i would like to test...) :L

all i can do is pray, that this year i would graduate and finally be free to figure things out. i hate not having money, not being independent - i had grown so accustomed to my place here at nottingham, moving back home is going to be away from my comfort zone - theres such an amazing feeling having your own place, do your own thing, no distractions, etc. here i can stay up as late as i need to and get things done, at home i can't have my music loud, i can't spend hours playing games, working on my graphics or just concentrating on studying for a whole day straight!
yes.. nottingham... i'm gonna miss this place and all the perks it brought.