Revelation into how people become impressionable and grumpy.

I woke up this morning with a sour feeling in my stomach and answers to questions I have been asking myself about people's attitudes for so many years. Without experience I suppose it's really hard to grasp or understand how people turn out the way they are, but with a little insight.. You can see through a keyhole why people are the way they are.

Why are my neighbours always copying us?! 

Believe it or not,  people who have lost their way,  or have not found their purpose are very impressionable. When they find a figure who seems to have an initiative or has their life put together, they become like a shining beacon of hope and aspiration. 

Unfortunately there are a lot of people out there that don't have a reason for existence and that makes them incredibly anxious and prone to being influenced by other people.  Such is life. 

Why are people so grumpy? What made them this way? 

People turn sour when they are no longer happy with what they have. Perhaps they didn't get the most out of their job or education that for whatever reason.. Nothing makes things better for them. These people used to be hopeful, they used to be some of the nicest people you would ever meet.. However over time,  a wall is built between hope and expectation. 

Depression has a huge factor on how people live their lives, and it can be so harmful and contagious in the workplace. Ask yourself if you are happy where you are, if you are surrounded by people who inspire you to be better, to have a purpose in life greater than just existing to provide for the family.. If there are gaps in your life, try to think of ways to steal your life around, and make it better for yourself and others. 

Ok ranting is over. 

down with sickness

yesterday morning i had developed a sore throat. i thought, no big deal, i still have my voice, and headed off to work. for the whole day we were really busy, so much so, that i didn't realise how tired i was till i got home. i crashed on my bed, and i slept for 8 hours straight. i awoke to take some pain killers for my headache and throat relieving lozenges. though, after i got back to bed i simply couldn't get sleep. i think i had unpredictable episodes of feeling hot and cold, my frontal lobe felt like it was going to explode, my muscles were too weak to move and my sore throat simply did not keep my sleep peaceful. i found the strength to get up at 3am after having a terrible hypothermia episode, i  literally had jittering teeth! i stripped off the bedding and slept next to the radiator. i called work and let them know that i was in no position to come to work today. its only after 6am that i got my peaceful slumber, lasting till 4pm. i awoke to take more medication and it was back to bed.
its 9pm now and i've been awake since 7pm. honestly i have never felt this weak in my entire life. it doesn't feel like i have a cold/flu, i just feel weak everywhere. my sore throat is still there despite taking medication, though my headache is thankfully gone. i have slightly more energy though i have not left my bed for more than 30mins. i tried to have a shower earlier but could not find the strength to stand long enough in the bathroom to make it happen. i feel terrible. i hate being sick, agh! :(

part of your world

I thought that by becoming a healthcare assistant i would get this amazing insight into how the ward functioned. reality is different. today consisted of a considerable amount of washes in the morning, followed by wiping away diarrhea while trying to mobilise a patient. if it was up to me, i would have taken the patient there using a commode, but the new nurse decided against it. nevertheless, damage control was our objective. this was then followed by a major and elaborate bed movements. i was so tired by the end of my shift. healthcare assistance is not a glorified role, you are on the front line and it requires great resilience to get through shift after shift. of course, this wouldn't be a problem for someone who just wants to hurt their back at work, but for the majority of us, it means always assessing the best course of action to take. its important to work smart, because if you don't you could be wiping away diarrhea all day. 

poor morale

reasons for poor morale within a ward:

1. working early in the morning
2. no control/sense of order in shift patterns
3. getting talked down/patronised by night staff/early staff
4. nurses scrawl and disappear for a good 30mins off the ward without telling anyone where they have gone
5. having done a good shift, and the staff taking over slash out at you for not completing everything
6. getting asked to fill in charts when you honestly have no idea what the patient had
7. not getting a handover
8. promises made by the matron not fulfilled
9. when staff members such as doctors or physiotherapists blank a friendly greeting
10. needy patient greedy patient attention seeking patient
11. cleaning shit/getting faecal matter over your uniform
12. the uniform colour -.-
13. nurses telling you to 'communicate better' when the obvious is so obviously evident just by looking at the patients or from the distressed tone in your voice calling the nurse for help a while back
14. repetition of work, inability to work with other members of staff such as doctors and therapists
15. answering the dreaded phone calls D: is that just me?
16. no weekly in-service training, being excluded from training sessions
17. excluded from MDT meetings
18. measuring urine output every hour
19. when you have to 'get out' from patient bed-side because doctors want to finish their morning round
20. getting told off by other HCAs for not leaving patient bedside when doctors come to check on patients >.> please explain to me why we have to do this because no-one could justify why we need to do this.
21. matron being extra upbeat and demanding the same attitude from you
22. matron demanding you to be more than 'fine'or 'ok' or 'doing well'
23. asking the matron to escalate an issue and having her laugh in your face
24. matron lying between her teeth
25. asking other staff members about an issue and finding that its been prominent for a good 2 years...
26. the sense of helplessness in other healthcare assistants
27. back-biting taking place at the end of every shift
28. when you end up with a lazy nurse / uncompliant member of staff on your shift
29. when doctors use the 'doctor's voice' on you  =_=;

enough gore for now, hope i didn't ruin anybody's day with this list.

if you have more reasons post in comments if you may.

Entering the Healthcare Assistant role

two weeks ago i began a new chapter as a healthcare assistant. despite my incredibly low expectations of the job, i never expected what has happened so far. i am cheerful, friendly and i get on with everyone. reasons which i thought were enough to work as a healthcare assistant (HCA) however i feel that i have been wrong.

disclaimer: entries in this blog are for the sole purpose of reflecting on work, they are my personal view and do not represent any healthcare company or organisation. my views may change - it comes with the job, there are some good days and some bad days. please don't take everything quite literal, and don't use any of my content without an informed consent/explicit permission from me.