Dare to dream

What if one day you wake up and realise you've stopped dreaming. you realise that your previous motivations mean nothing now. the life you planned for the past couple of years.. well, they don't matter any more.

How do you get on and build new dreams? 

one thing i've always done was stick to what interests me, what makes me passionate, what makes me happy.
But, what if for the past couple of years all your efforts into achieving this goal to better yourself, to aim for THE dream.. they all suddenly come crashing down.
Depression is inevitable, it's what happens when your mind doesn't get what it wants, it's the hole that forms when your foundations are shook. how do you start to dream again? how do you build a new dream?
self development is a journey, with lots of roads, avenues, and dead ends. how would you start?
what do you do with all the knowledge you have gained? how do you deal with the realisation that you cannot continue down the path of aspiration?
I feel so lost..

Finding your feet, not yet the ground

It's been a long time since i made a post. today i just like, i really needed to write.
so much has happened the past 2 years and i just can't help but wonder how different things were years back. i feel like i had lost so much time. i don't regret my choices but looking back, so much has changed.
i was listening to a conversation today, and before i knew it.. i found myself thinking about my dad, how he must feel at this moment in time. i can't imagine anyone else going through what he is going through but for this particular moment i felt that the people having the conversation knew exactly how he felt.
strangely enough, i kind of related to it too.

Time to get sucked in

Easing back to revision has been a roller-coaster ride. It's great on some days, terrible on others. Working full time, and doing the YouTube thing is exhausting enough.
nonetheless, if you want something to happen, you have to put in the hours.. and the work to achieve it.

So far away

It has been a while. So much has happened since my last post. Started a chilled youtube channel (check the video above) and have been distant from the books for over a month. Friends from Australia had began preparation for interviews, pondering over which universities to go for, and asking questions about their next step. I feel as though I've made no progress.. On top of it all, Scribblar had changed their policies and now expects their users to pay to use rooms. Something which should remain free for all. Absolutely appalled by this!!!

dearly beloved

for the past few days it seems that everytime i lay on my bed, ready to go to sleep, the gamsat test creeps into my head. today i decided to separate the associations of sleep with gamsat. to do this, i made a list of all the topics that i could think of that came on the test. there weren't a lot that i could remember, and it seems the questions themselves seem so far away - but still, i think i felt traumatised by how many questions i found hard on the test day. i hope to get better sleep tonight knowing that i've written out the topics. yay for brains being weird.