lazy sunday

one lazy sunday its been! absolutely no motivation to revise, at all. I barely squeezed in an essay today, maybe i'm just using really hard themes.. meh, its blatantly obvious that a crappy complicated theme like prejudice would come up in the exams.

one easy, two hard

dammit dammit dammit. i need an exercise regime that involves me getting so tired just before going to bed. in my attempt to correct my sleeping pattern, if i try to sleep 1 hour earlier, i end up waking up in the middle of the night, and remaining wide awake for 3 hours straight. i end up oversleeping and waking up exactly the same time every day aaaaahh!
i can't just wake up in the middle of the night and be like, yeah i'm gonna work out now, mum, dad, oh hello little sister don't mind me, just gonna do some.. you know.. exercise.. get back to bed >.>
as if i'm not weird enough as it is..

one time i actually woke my little sister (back when she used to sleep in my room) just to tell her to get back to sleep. as evil as that sounds, i still get the giggles from thinking about it.

secrets only trouble knows

verbal reasoning questions done today, marked and annotated. biochemistry left to do.
aerobics done, diet needs tinkering for next week x.x;;;....

paradigm shift

today i was actually disappointed to find a job interview offer in my mail box, DISAPPOINTED! last year i would have been dancing around my room.. what the hell is wrong with me?!

astaghfur allah al'atheem...

I should look at this more positively.
at least its not a healthcare assistant job per se.. agh they are all the same are they not? cleaning poop/wee from an unfortunate soul stuck in the hospital because they happen to be sick? *sighhh..*
moar biochemistry done today along with sec 1 material. i really need to improve my sec 1, its complete ridicule compared to august last year. marked some of it.. i think i may have been half asleep answering some of the questions. i can't make silly little mistakes like this in the actual exam. 

we think too much and feel too little

happy new years by the way.. can't truly say i celebrated, for i know i shouldn't till i pass gamsat. funny how things are placed on hold while you concentrate on whats really important in life at the very moment in time.
its like while you're there in the moment, you can see all  these things around you, and its really your choice whether to get washed away in the stream or see the events unfold, as you wait patiently for your moment. its no sign of fear, its a sign of a wise adult making the decision of when to take action.
so this week its been biochemistry frenzy. i love biochemistry.. well some of it because its like piecing proteins and molecules together to make something else, with so many possibilities.. ok, i try to like biochemistry! i have to :O
i need to work on my revision schedule.i find that i'm thinking about gamsat all day, and accomplishing little, or just enough to get through the timetable. i need to make time for other things.. and that includes doing shifts at the hospital.